I thought I always did.. express myself.. until of course I was told that there’s a difference between expressing feelings and expressing an opinion. Good point! Why didn’t I think of it before? Guess guys don’t pay attention to the small details, they just say stuff and move on, it takes a woman to sense these things and considering I haven’t been around too many women of late.. the feedback came in late.
It is in little moments like these, when my friends tell me how they perceive me as a person, the little details that otherwise go un-noticed, for it helps me make those small changes that helps me be a better version of myself.
I have always believed that I am a ‘Work-in-Progress’ kind of person, constantly making those small changes, not something you will notice if we interact everyday. I am definitely not the person I was when I was 25 nor will I remain the same when I turn 50.
I decided I needed to ask someone who knew me really well on what they thought of me as a person who always expressed himself, and who better to ask than mum, dad & sis and surprisingly they all had the same perspective, that I don’t really express my feelings in comparison to expressing a lot of opinions all of the time. So there it was, it finally dawned on me that I am different, I am not the average Joe. I am a class apart!
Something which comes naturally to people is not something that comes naturally to me.
I’ve always been that kind of person that would take the road less travelled, go in the opposite direction or end up doing something totally un-expected of me.
..and that is why people always want to know “what’s up with him?” Obviously, they won’t come up to me and ask, I’m sure by now they already know me quite well! For those who don’t..I hope I haven’t scared you, behind the tough exterior lies this warm hearted individual, that has built a strong wall around him and it will only take those special few to break it down and know the real ‘me’.