Looking back 36 years of my life lived, could I have done..
..been someone different?
..done things differently?
..approached life more seriously?
During a conversation with an absolute stranger, he asked me a strange question “Considering you have been single all your life..are you Happy?” You’d gotta think what kind of a dumb question is that?
I had an answer ready for him, like I always do for any question shot at me. In typical ‘my style of reply’, I said “things can definitely be better” he wasn’t really satisfied with my answer, and he asked again…
This time however, I blew out a dry cough, smiled and said “considering the current situation I find myself in, YES, life hasn’t quite turned out the way I would like it to have been but I have absolutely no regrets”
Who was I kidding? No regrets? Really? A chance to may be re-do things or do things differently if given a chance? May-be? But what is the guarantee that things would have turned out better now, if I had addressed those issues differently?
Don’t things happen for a reason? Yes surely we have our right to change the course of action.. and have things go our way, but what if we left life to show us its direction for us, would things be different? I wish there was a system where we could have known… after a given no of years spent on earth – my way v/s the other way
Is this the price we have to pay for interfering with life’s plans? A sub standard life? A life of craving more and more? A life of never being satisfied with what we have…?
Hasn’t the thought crossed your mind… what if…?
But then I look at my life now, Yes its not perfect.. forget perfect – its no where close to perfect… yet I am so content at so many different levels. I can’t even begin to count the blessings that has kept me alive till this day, they’ve been people younger than me who hasn’t had this privilege. Can I be more blessed?
Surely there are a whole lot of if and but’s
but in all of those ‘missed’ parts of my life, I’ve made memories, wonderful memories, memories I’d treasure all my life and would never trade that for anything in the world.
We are born into this world with a clean slate, life happens, memories are made and as soon as we know it… times moves forward and we’re left to think to ourselves…
“hey! where did it all go so fast?”
..and we look back, but that’s all we can really do – look and do nothing! there is no undo button to life.
Sometimes the most unexpected conversations spark little thoughts that make me:
Stop. Pause. Think. and then move on.
Can something be done?
Just keep moving ahead..