Tag: relationships

When dreams make you smile..

There’s something about the cool weather, be it accompanied with rain or just pleasant climate that gets me in a very good mood, especially at nights.. that’s when all good things happen.

I’m not sure where your mind wandered off (for a split second) with that above sentence, but I am talking about Dreams. Yesterday was yet another instance, the best part of it being that I can remember them (not everyone can) and another is that they are always incomplete.. That’s gotta mean something right?  🤔

It all began with words like these that I was narrating..

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“…I will love you, hold you and honor you,
in health and sickness,
in good times and in bad,
For all the days of my life…”

and we all know what comes after the vows right? 😉

The priest says: “Now you may kiss the bride” now, that part isn’t really highlighted for some reason in the dream which is weird.. like in every movie you have certain scenes you wouldn’t miss out. this would be kind of an important scene in a dream right?

Now, if there’s been anything clear in my life, its been in my dreams.. [even clearer than that of the windshield of my car] and that is a BIG deal, because I do always like to keep my windshield clean & clear, for best vision. That said, why is it that at the end of it, I cannot recognize the person’s face (in this case: the bride) and it’s all in a blur? 🤔

This hasn’t been the first time and I’m sure it wouldn’t be the last time either.

I’m never gonna get that happy ending I envisioned for myself now.. am I? I guess I’ll just have to be content with the smiles that my dreams bring me in the morning that follows, for the other parts of the day, it is just madness that goes around, if not in front of me, definitely in my head.

Who is going to complete these un-finished dreams of mine? Its not like the next night-a part II would play out automatically, which would be really cool if it did.. but that ain’t happening.

This getting married in my dreams thing is pretty cool, I’m sure we’ve all got dreams like that, its the frequency in which I get them – which is kind of surprising. It’s already happened like more than a few times now, I’m just hoping that in all those times, it is the same bride, considering it is all a blur… more like a cloud effect, at least for one thing I know, it is a marriage ‘Made in Heaven’

There was something similar I wrote some time ago, that was another dream. of course fictionalized to an extent. Do read and tell me how you liked it, you’ll find it below, it has three parts to it. Would love to have your feedback on it.

To heaven &..I         To heaven &..II        To heaven &..III

5 Days!

Sitting by the window, staring at nothing in particular, thinking of where she might have gone wrong.. replaying out all the events of the last 5 days repeatedly in her mind. She now had a secret, a secret she couldn’t share with anyone.

It was only last Tuesday that..
She had discovered Love
She, like all her friends, now had someone she could call her very own
She found the man she was going to marry
Life had given her a reason to finally live

‘Love With All You’ve Got’ she had read this line somewhere…

“Didn’t I do that…? Where did I go wrong then?” she kept questioning herself

Call after call went unanswered… he wasn’t even willing to talk to her

In the background somewhere played Bryan Adam’s song.. it wasn’t the first time she had heard that song, it was today that she listened to its lyrics.

When you love someone, you’ll do anything
You’ll do all the crazy things, that you can’t explain
You’ll shoot the moon, put out the sun
When you love someone

You’ll deny the truth, believe a lie
There’ll be times that you’ll believe, you could really fly
But your lonely nights, have just begun

When you love someone
When you love someone, you’ll feel it deep inside
And nothin else, could ever change your mind
When you want someone, when you need someone

When you love someone
When you love someone, you’ll sacrifice
You’d give it everything you got and you won’t think twice
You’d risk it all, no matter what may come
When you love someone
You’ll shoot the moon, put out the sun
When you love someone

A Sign

“The baby kicked” she excitedly told Sarah, her best friend after the relatively longish dance session she had.. “not once but at least 5 times, it was like my baby wanted to dance too…”babe

“Wow! that’s so awesome babe! Am so happy for you”

“Actually the baby kicked while I was dancing with Barry”

“Barry-ex boyfriend Perry? What were you doing dancing with Barry? Where was Adam”?

“We’re friends and he asked me for a dance, I couldn’t say no.. and besides the baby has never kicked when I’m with Adam. The baby doesn’t seem very connected to him.. this wasn’t the first time the baby has kicked, it happened last week too”

“Tell me you were with Adam then..”

“Nopes, actually had met Barry last week for something that he needed to talk to me about, and he felt it too..I think my baby likes Barry too”

“What do you mean “too”, do you still like him? Wake up woman..what are you doing? Do you even know where you’re going with all of this”

“Don’t you think it is a sign..”

“What kind of sign Cynthia? You’re married and pregnant with your husband’s baby and what signs are you looking for?.. there is nothing out there”

——– silence ———–

“Ouch!..the baby kicked again see…”

“..but Barry isn’t here”

“yaaaa but we’re talking about him…see?? A sign…

Scared of Love?

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For everyone has met a monster who ruined the idea of Love, forever

Everyone has a scar, which doesn’t let them smile again in love. Everyone has heard so many lies that even the truth sounds fake now. Everyone is too scared to be broken again

#TruthOfLife

 

The Question:

The most terrifying question a woman can ask a man is: 

“Notice anything different?”

Do not look at the obvious places. I repeat, DO NOT LOOK in the obvious places. She hasn’t done anything there 😝😂

For all you know, it might be the tiniest thing she has done and something we would never notice.

“Where do I look?” “What do I say?” 

…she’s looking towards you looking for an answer, time is running out and you start the guessing game – hoping you get one answer correct

“You got a haircut”      ……..no she hasn’t emo

“You did your nails”       ……..she’s pissed now. You’re not paying attention

“You bought a new skirt”     ……..she starts accusing you how an insensitive man you can be.

She knows you’ll never get it and finally says “I did my eyebrows, how could you not notice!?” 

Damn! I was so close! 😝

 

Five ways to… Day 1

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I’m really putting myself out there… aren’t I? 

Well.. am doing a 10-day challenge, the first task of which it asks me to mention ‘five ways to win my heart’. So here goes… brace yourself for some honesty!

Now to begin, my heart is one of the easiest things to capture. That said, it’s been 36 years and counting.. and it still searches for that other elusive heart it can synchronize its heartbeat with.

Getting to the task at hand: 5 ways to win my heart… 

  1. Simplicity: Going the simple way. Eating a vada-pao by the roadside over gorging a pizza in pizza hut. Richness, a wallet of many big notes, showing off are things that don’t impress me – definitely is not my style. Spending quality time with someone over spending quality money with someone. A simple girl with simple values, living a simple normal life. I am absolutely bowled over a girl who makes no special effort to make herself noticed. I will notice her even otherwise. Unfortunately, I haven’t met those kinds of girls and for those, I have met, they are either committed or already married.
  2. Highly communicative [In English – yes pls!] & gets along with the family: That means Father+Mother+Sister (the rest do not matter) and loves to talk (not to the extents of verbal diarrhea). As we grow older, the sex and all the physical proximity might diminish, but communication will keep us going. I love talking myself, but I can tire after some time…at those times I can keep quiet and just listen (we all know women have lots to say..and they can go on..n on.. n on…)
  3. Travel: Traveling gets me on a high, therefore it is understood a person that loves to travel is someone I will get along best with. Some of the most romantic moments happen during journey’s or in hotels or basically in any place that’s not your home. There’s something very relaxing about doing naughty stuff outside of the comforts of your home.
  4. While it may be a small thing… but to me, it is kind of a big deal. 7 letters‘English’. Blue, green, red English is a big turn off… Someone who can speak good English is a big turn on (of course along with the other good stuff) I have this urge to correct grammar when spoken wrong…I can’t live my life with a person knowing that the next sentence she speaks is gonna have lots of grammatical mistakes… aaarrrggghhhh
  5. I know I’ve mentioned this before but… the 4 S’sSimple, Sweet, Sexy and Specsy. Specsy is the NEW SEXY.  There’s nothing much I can do if my girl happens to have great eyesight, but there is something called a zero number – that works too. It’s like dating two girls in one/or married to two girls in one.

So that’s Day 1 of my 10-day challenge.

Next one tomorrow – Things I like and dislike about myself. Till then ta-ta Image result for waving hand gif

The Stranger Trilogy – Novoneel Chakraborty (Book Review)

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Marry me, Stranger
I’m Rivanah Bannerjee, a young and independent girl living alone in Mumbai. My parents love me, my boyfriend adores me and I have a great job. But here’s the thing -my life is in danger. Someone’s been following me around, watching my every move, trying to get control over my life. At first, I thought it was a silly prank to gain my attention. My roomie suggested he must be a secret admirer. Is he? What he doesn’t know is the police have set a trap to nab him. Soon I’ll know if its simply a lovers obsession or there is more to it. BTW, I call him Stranger.
Enough 4 me to lay my hands on the book…
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For those of you who don’t know me yet, I’m Rivanah Bannerjee, a Kolkatan trying to find her footing in Mumbai. Even though I’m currently in a relationship with a great guy, I can’t help but miss my ex-boyfriend despite knowing that he cheated on me. But that’s the least of my worries. The stranger has gone missing since the police tried to nab him unsuccessfully. Where is he? What does he want from me? Why did he come into my life in the first place? Will he ever contact me again? These and many more questions continue to torment me every day. I’m desperate for the stranger to come back to me knowing fully well that he may destroy me forever. But then that’s the sexiest thing I have ever known about someone.
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I m Rivanah Bannerjee 23 F Mumbai. Some of you might already know how my life is on a razor edge. Those of you who don t just know this I may be killed soon . . . by the Stranger. I don’t know who or what he is, a ghost a person or a figment of my imagination? All I know is he isn’t just one thing, he is sexy and scary terrific and terrifying. What I don’t understand is why a young harmless girl like me who works in a big city stays away from her parents and has a screwed-up love life would be of any interest to him. Unless there is something about my own story that I do not know. In the hotly anticipated final installment of the Stranger trilogy, Rivanah will learn the answers to her many questions What is it that binds her to the dead Hiya? Who is the Stranger? Why has he been following her all this while? leading to an intense breathtaking climax.
I began reading the book. This is what I thought after I came to the end…

780 pages, 3 novels and 3 days later after having read all three parts of the ‘Stranger Trilogy’ did I FINALLY get to know who the stranger was. The author, Novoneel Chakraborty really keeps the reader wondering who it (the stranger) could be and the mystery that surrounds her and the stranger – connections and all.

One word – Phew!

After having read his first novel ‘that kiss in the rain’ a really really long time back (which was simply wow! btw) The stranger trilogy was a whole different genre that the author ventured into. I was very skeptical about purchasing the book at first, but after having finished all the 3 parts, I’m glad I did. He has done a great job. This guy had got some serious writing talent. Great going buddy!

As anxious as Rivanah (the main character in the novel) was to find out who the stranger was, I was equally waiting to reach to ‘that page’ where the revelation would be made. It was not until I completed 780 pages (over 3 books) to eventually get there.
I’m not sure why I always end up liking the main girl lead character in any book I read, but as messed up as Rivanah’s life gets over the course of the story, I like her a little more as I kept reading. There’s really no boring part in the book, it just keeps you going as a reader to know more & more.

However that said, I did not like a couple of things, which may be the author could improve on, firstly his language skills which need improvement (better sentence construction, phrase usage etc) it was good but can definitely be better and of course the intimate scenes between characters, could be explained or written in a more passionate/erotic/sensual manner. It felt more like ‘rough sex’ than ‘passionate sex’

The plot was wonderful and so was the story flow, keeping the reader engaged after every turn of the page. There were many characters which were fitted well at different junctions in the story which was really good. Character portrayals were to the ‘T’.
I would not to be able to point out a certain kind of category who would enjoy reading this book, but for anyone who enjoys a little mystery, a little love and a good read will have a great time reading the ‘stranger trilogy’.

Not sure the titles or the book covers quite matched up to the contents of the story but well… it’s the story that matters most, covers & pictures can always change.

I’ll give it a 3.5/5 rating. Overall happy with the purchase.

Rhythms of Love

  •  3 love stories
  •  1 emotion: LOVE
  •  A man who stood against it – Mr. Narayan Shankar.
  • …and for anyone who stands against LOVE there is always a Mr. Raj Aryan, played by none other than Shahrukh Khan (the undisputed King of Romance) 

Yes! I am talking about the movie ‘Mohabbatein’, loosely translated to ‘Love’ in English. While I always believe that the story is important for any movie to be successful, in this movie personally I loved the background tunes… and when I listened to that tune after almost 17 years. the day before yesterday, it brought back that wide grin to my face to evoke some wonderful memories. 

 

Who was your favorite couple?
Who was your favorite couple?

 

C’mon, we all aspired to be the kind of lover, Shahrukh Khan posed to be in his movies… failing miserably of course. Not sure about the girls (and their favorites), but all the guys wanted to have SRK streaks in them. 

Listen to the below tune.. and tell me if it evokes a memory!

Why even google even mentions Shahrukh Khan as a synonym of love. Can’t believe me? Have a look for yourself below:

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In the words of the man himself, he says “I sell dreams, and I peddle love to millions of people” Do watch his TED Talk, it’s interesting how he goes about speaking to an audience.

If for some reason, you are unable to watch the video, the link is HERE.

Do you wanna partner?

Finding your husband in a boss…?

I’m not sure if its a thing in the country you live in… but at least in the place I live in, it is quite a regular thing.
The office receptionist or the ‘office girl’ as they refer to it in India, could well turn out to be the boss’s wife in a few years down the line.

So how does it work?

A girl comes for an interview, if she’s lucky enough, she gets selected; hopefully more for her work ethics than her looks.

Her duties in the workplace (read as Internet cafe’s, bakeries, ice-cream joints, book-shops etc..) would include handling cash inflow, interacting with customers and keeping the business up and running, coz who are we kidding? We all know to run a successful business, an attractive/semi-attractive female is required to welcome its customers right?
(read: men [big spenders]) She gets the customers coming in, the boss is happy and the cash register is constantly ringing. “Jackpot”, the boss thinks.. his heart begins to get warmer for his ‘right selection’ and decides to give a promotion to his ‘once upon a time staff-girl’ to now ‘wife’ status – just like that.

Boss’s have hearts too… right? what if their approach is different?

The purpose of this post is not to objectify women or anything of that sort, but to make ‘YOU’ aware – that a simple job offer could land a girl an unwanted husband. Beware of the ‘single’ boss, or as some people put it… the word ‘Single’ is just a word… more times than not, it is the state of the mind of a man. If he’s extra nice to you… who knows! You may be unaware BUT you’re on his trial period on what he’s actually looking out for – ‘a future wife’.

A simple job may just turn out to be a future family business!

Talk of different ways to find your life partner. While finding love at the work-place is the most common way of meeting your true love, some people have other unconventional ways of finding their love-mates.

I think I’ve seen enough to know the lengths people would go to getting what they want.

I haven’t had the privilege of working under a woman boss.. but I would believe it’s a different & better situation there? Or if I have to go by the Bollywood movie I watched (namely Aitraaz) wherein the woman boss is portrayed as aggressive (Priyanka Chopra), would make me think that women are equal to men in that area? or is it just in the movies?

..a little more fight left?

You’re breathing your last few breaths on the operation table with doctors doing their best to save you.. but its not really in their hands..

Do you have a little more of a fight left in you to see it through… back to life?

Its not that he’s never done it before..and surely for him and his girlfriend who are in two separate rooms with doctors working hard to save their lives, He knew he had to fight doubly hard for the both of them to make it alive. It didn’t look good.

He did promise her parents, he would bring their daughter back before nightfall and he was not one to go back on his word – of course there was just one problem, he didn’t know how long this would take.

What would it feel if you could overlook everything’s that’s been happening… from the outside but can do nothing about it?

Fighting between life and death, would time be on their side this time round? It was already more than a couple of hours in surgery by the time the families got to the hospital. It wasn’t really the time to know how it all happened but more the time to pray and hope for the best.
How could I let go, there were so many people here at the hospital who were praying for us.. as I whispered into my baby’s ears;

“we need to hold on Debra, we need to hang on for the people who love us”

It was after what seemed like the longest 3 and a half hours of surgery, did the doctor finally come out and say,

“You’re son’s heart is beating but with the help of a machine, the next 24 hours is critical”.

What did he care? What about Debra? How was she doing?

Every passing hour seemed liked forever, Debra’s mum and dad hadn’t moved from their seats, I needed to assure them that everything would be alright, their Debra would be fine – she would come back home. It was all out of a sudden when we heard on the intercom;

Paging Dr. Dennis, ITS AN EMERGENCY, Dr Dennis – Room No 411.

It was me.. the body that lay on the bed was not responding and the heart rate had steadily kept decreasing at a fast pace…did it mean??? My vision was getting blurrier, why couldn’t I see anything clearly any more? ..they were trying to keep me alive but I didn’t have any fight in me left.. but Debra.. I struggled to get to her room, I held her hands tight, closing my eyes –

“you’re going home Debra, you’re going back home”.

As a straight line showed on the monitor, the doctor turned around and said, 

“I’m sorry, he didn’t make it..”

Down the hallway in room 402, there seemed to be activity happening there too – the patient was responding, so was her heart rate improving gradually.

For that mini second, heartbeat it was an ‘all Allan-Debra moment’ there! 

Welcome back Debra! 

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This was a dream I got, a few weeks ago.. I didn’t know what to make of it, so I thought the best thing to do, would be to convert it into a blog post. It lay in my drafts, until I finally decided to post it. The best part of it was, I woke up smiling..